Can you help me figure this out? (Anyone)?

It is a strange thing - these women. They do seem to tend toward the bad boys I think because they think they are exciting. It takes them a few bad marriages to realize that excitiment isn't that great. Then they look to guys like you to hook up with. My advice is for you to continue to do what you do. Make your plans your goals and keep working toward achievement. If you want you can try "craigs list" and search near your home for a girl who is looking for someone like you. Otherwise look over at the girl who is also shy who wouldn't think of approaching you. She could be in one of your cles, already working in your company or just sitting in church. Keep looking and don't be afraid to make the first move to introduce yourself. Good luck you sound like a winner to me.